Waiting for life to continue
I've been waiting too long.

Waiting for the right time to buy the house. Waiting for the right time to make those needed repairs. Waiting for the right time to buy the needed appliance. Waiting for the time to mail those cards and late Christmas gifts, waiting on someone to make the work environment better.

The house is bought. Thankfully I didn't put it off but other things I've been reluctant to begin. I am so afraid of putting myself out on a limb and falling off in the attempt of making life easier. I know it's shadows of past failures, most a financial one, but it's time to face those fears once again.

I've slipped back into that "wait for a better time" pattern. A better time may or may not happen. Why continue to allow life to slip away and not do the things I'm waiting to do?

My co-workers and I were thrown into a depressing work environment this year. A vice principal who had almost 100% support in bidding on the newly vacant principal's position has forgotten that our staff is an outstanding group of teachers. Forgotten that for several years we've received the top test scores in our county. Forgotten that the people she now sees as subservient were once her friends. Somewhere along the line she decided principal was less a leader and became a total "BOSS", complete with every controlling stereotype a bad boss can bring. It's a sad situation.

We've been waiting for it to change and get back to the warm, friendly enviroment it has been in the past but truthfully, it may never revert back. If we have no support from her, then maybe its time to remind ourselves that we can support each other. So today I spent a paltry 10 or 12 bucks to buy the small items that some teachers will find in their boxed Monday afternoon. Included with it will be a short note reminding them that they're appreciated and thought of often. It won't be signed. If they figure it out, thats ok. If not, then maybe the smile will be shared with someone else and it will propagate.

Why wait?

If you've read this blog for very long (Not the LJ one but the mirror on tripod) you'll know I lost a friend last month. Steve's death was difficult for me. He was a net friend and wanted to come visit last summer. I put him off for reasons I won't go into here, all of them connected to vanity, and now that opportunity will never present itself again. One month ago tonight....and I still miss him horribly.

Letting people know how you feel isn't something to be put off for another day. Stop waiting. Tell them. Show them. By word or deed show them you care.

Stop waiting for a better time.
It's here.
It's now.












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