Kicking and screaming as I go...
I have too many blogs...

I am not a flexible person. I've come to realize this over the years. Actually I've always known it. It explains why I remained in some rotten relationships even though they had completely fallen apart.

Internet relationships seem the most tenuous of all. They can morph into something unrecognizable at the drop of a hat. Yet I hang on to many for dear life, probably after my communication and contact ceases to even be noticed by the object of my attention.

Why is it that many see internet friends as expendible? It's almost as if they believe them not to be real. Yet on each end of the communication is a living breathing human (unless you're Klingon and not telling us) that thinks, emotes and shares.

So why is it so easy to walk away from them? Is it because we can delete the email with no effort, removing the guilt from our mind and sight? Or do some people really feel like net friendships are akin to video games? Fun for the moment you're playing them.

I made friends with a person a couple years ago who apparently now has a "life" (Thank you very much. Here I thought I was part of your day - silly me) and has virtually dropped out of sight. I'm happy that he's found someone but completely perplexed by his actions. He simply dropped a number of people from his life without much regret at all it seems. How does one *do* that? How do you just click a button and turn people off that you've spent night after night talking and laughing with?

Maybe there's something I'm missing. Maybe it's a good thing I am.

Yet as one door closes another I thought forever closed, opens. Perhaps one was merely holding the place for the other.

But you know...
I don't like changes...
I wanna keep em all

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